Life as a Researcher...

Always since I grew up,

I knew a voice inside my head,

that told me I was above,

house, money and bread.

I let just every unimportant, 

person laugh on me.

I couldn't waste my time

on those stupid bullies.

Life got so much better,

with every fleeting beat.

People came and went,

but I couldn't self-deceit.

The voice just stayed with me 

and let me believe,

I could be a part of

a bigger destiny..

There’s an ocean of energy,

its your potential to be,

someone who could be a part

of a bigger destiny...

Its very rare that you find a place 

that resonates,

what you feel.

and makes you believe,

That the path you've set,

is the path you love

and it makes you fly

in those clouds above.

It makes you grow

and time just flows

It’s a warm embrace

to the things you wanna face..

So there is no end

to this journey...

You can just work...

to be a part of a bigger destiny...

Ellen DeGeneres

Okay I know the title is just enough to bring a smile on your face (and those who don’t know Ellen..as a pure “Ellenian” I forgive you and love you :P )but well if for none I write this blog for myself. Obviously got to admit that I am writing with this teensy little hope that the lady herself reads it and as Ellen says “why not?! You dream it to achieve it”. She can do the cover of O with just a joke and dance with Twitch with just a joke and oh boy what a joke it would be if Ellen doesn’t read this blog ever :P

But you see that’s the difference. We all do stuff for our own selfish, self-centered needs but for Ellen it aint the case! She spreads Smiles all over the world and not just smiles; they are bombs of incessant laughter which she throws at us saying “Right back at ya!” This is absolutely selfless and inspiring. With this blog all I want to convey is how much I love you and love who you are. I am lucky to be blessed with many things which when I see your show realize that some people just dream about them. I don’t write this for any favours, I am lucky to be blessed as I said. Ofcourse it’s an American show but as an Indian if you can move me then I feel you have more power than the presidents of all the countries and there you go! Your quest for world domination here successfully ends!

When it comes to humour, man I suck at it. My jokes are pathetic! But looking at Ellen I try to pick up her style of dry sarcasm and witty jokes to make all people happy around me. Obviously I terribly fail but then I can say "blame Ellen" it’s her style haha kidding! There are always these grumpy ones, forever alone kinds but Ellen is definitely an inspiration to continue loving such kinds as well coz after all there is no difference between anyone of us.

 So many people are now into yoga and stuff. I feel like laughing at the Americans. You don’t need to come to India to pick up yoga…You have Ellen!! Live.Laugh.Dance and see how happy and satisfied you are with your life. I am a dancer myself. I love dancing and so I know how special I am in her eyes :D Oh and talking about eyes….have you seen Ellen’s eyes? They are beautiful! Also I have always noticed in her shows how she laughs for this very brief moments and moves forward with the show! How does she do that? I am laughing my ass off and there ellen will be like …”but anyways the point is…” and moves on! Man what a grip on yourself as a comedian! Simply amazing.

My mother tells me I “waste” a lot of time watching youtube videos which are all about theellenshow. Hours n hours can be spent watching Ellen and thinking about how beautiful life is with its ups and downs. I told my mother that she taught me about love and now it’s her fault that I love ellen! She just smiles back…reminds me of Betty ma’am! What a mother! Although just by saying mother it becomes understood but well adding Betty in front of it you know it’s the mother of all mothers! I wish I had my grandparents with me and grandparents like Betty would be like heaven! I would keep moving from one house to the other and help them hoard more stuff like staplers and stuff haha you got to be a pure ellen fan or an Ellenian as I put it to understand what I am saying… Ellen I could just go on n on about you but well the whole world knows about you anyways. This was just a way to express myself so that you know an Ellenian exists…love you ..keep rocking and laughing…..and keep dancing! 

It all depends on you!

I’ve just come back to my dormitory after those long 15 hours of work in my laboratory and I am dead tired! Yet something just compelled me open Microsoft word and sit and write this blog. What was it that despite my yawning and half shut eyes makes me want to pen down my feelings which apparently are all about slumber? As I wondered blankly staring at my desktop I realized it was pure and simple satisfaction. Yeah you might just roll your eyes and think “oh come on?!” But yeah you read it right. It’s satisfaction, a virtue like happiness which can’t be questioned about its end. As in why do you want to be happy or satisfied? It’s an end in itself and I am sure you know how it feels when you experience pure unadulterated values like these. It’s always in moments isn’t it? It doesn’t stay for a very long period of time. Just those brief moments which you don’t even need to bother to register in your memories, it involuntarily does. And so with this feeling still lingering in my heart I realized I have chosen the right path for myself.

I mean we all at a point of time or the other …we do think about our purpose, our aims, our likes, dislikes (or maybe think about it several points of time ..well that’s a line of time? ..ugh whatever my jokes are just pathetic :P) and as to how we can work upon them, to well,….earn money and teach those bitches a lesson :P just kidding! But yeah we do think about this stuff no matter how much we might try and deny it in front of others. Sometimes probably even discuss it, as it is with the people whom we think have no life and yet they discuss about life …although you would like to talk about it to find an answer possible but you just choose to ignore if you’re in the denial group.. sometimes you might even give it a try to discuss it with the nerds to get an idea about yourself but well they just keep depressing you don’t they? :P so the established fact is that be it whoever he/she does think about his/her purpose. There might be some who live an aimless life but well me and my blog doesn’t consider them to be a part of humanity. There’s a difference in having no aim yet trying to find one and having no aim at all.

So well as I came back to my dormitory I felt this immense satisfaction of doing the right thing for myself. Those who know how this feels can surely drown back to their time but majority of us are still in that process. For such kinda people I write this for a simple encouragement to keep on trying the things which you just ‘feel’ are right for you but don’t ‘know’ for sure. You never know your heart until you can feel its fastest beat which seems to come in every such moment where you not only know your heart but yourself and that hazy path which for years and years was in front of you all becomes crystal clear!